But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep
Another winter is upon me.
When winter approaches, I often think of this poem. My thoughts don’t dwell on what the poet may have meant, but rather how the words seem to fit with the part of my mind that flirts with negativity when contemplating my condition. Dark words can feed dark places.
However, my intent is not be negative and even-though the opening quote has a darkness, I do not wish to echo those somber tones. With the approach of winter, I need to find my centre and reinforce the tools and behaviours I have been using to keep myself sharp.
On Monday, I lifted weights for the first time since near the end of September. Luckily, my diet has been reasonably clean and I actually felt great! Forty-five minutes of weights combined with jumping rope was just what I needed. To my surprise, I found I was actually stronger than the last time I lifted; I have no logical reason which would explain this. I also found I was able to jump rope with a higher pace and more ferocity than what I had recently become accustomed to. Again, I have no idea why this would be, but I am happy.
Wherever you may be this November, if you are like me and the prospect of another winter makes you feel anxious, make the effort to reinforce whatever techniques you are using to be well and cope. I built a home-gym in my basement and have recommitted myself to my diet and to writing on this blog.
The “promises to keep” are to myself, because by extension they make the commitments I have to my family possible. If I keep true to them I will have, “miles to go before I sleep.”
I will have a very full and happy life in the years to come.